Morning Me

 This is what I do… in the mornings..  

I wake up at 5:30 am.  The earlier the better. Then I stretch on a yoga mat, listen to NPR, then CNN. Drink coffee…. Shower… drink coffee…. Look for clothes… read.. oh and chat with friends all over the world. Drink more coffee. Look at the time and realize “fuck” I’m gonna be late to work. Then, The anxiety sets in. I get cut off in traffic. Wait in traffic, wonder why they cut me off.  “Shenpa” kicks in.  The inability to let that attachment to anger leave my mind. So I fuel it.  Worry about having to say hello to people. Worrying about will hurt while perform work duties today. Oh more coffee. Hurry go back to my classroom so no one sees me. Hide… drink coffee. 

Not all mornings are like this. It’s 50/50. That’s what this week has been like. Wasn’t like that last week, so maybe it’s the ear infection. Maybe 🙋🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️